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Book 9, Eternal I (He and She) School
THE ABYSSARIANISM INNER CHILD by Cupideros
“Every messy Child-Learning Phase ends somewhere. It might as well be right here and now!“.
BOOK NINE: THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I (HE AND SHE) SCHOOL
How the Divine Wounded and Healed Your Inner Child
INTRODUCTION TO THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I SCHOOL
The Eternal I School of Abyssarianism teaches that there is a God—or rather, a Divine presence that is both He and She, both masculine and feminine, both creator and nurturer. This presence, the Eternal I, is the source of all life. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child’s relationship with this presence shapes everything.
If you grew up with a punishing God, you see yourself as a failure. If you grew up with a distant God, you feel alone. If you grew up with a conditional God, you constantly try to earn love. If you grew up with a gender-biased God, you repress half of yourself. The Eternal I School helps you find a God that makes you think and feel safe. None of those Gods are the style of Abyssarianism Eternal I School!
The Abyssarianism Eternal I (He and She) wants you to become like them; in fact, you came from them—you are their children. You are destined to become Gods and Goddesses in your own right. BUT—YOU HAVE TO GROW UP—BE TRAINED. SO LIFE IS NOT ABOUT SUFFERING—LIFE IS ABOUT LEARNING TO GROW UP! AND THIS EARTH IS THE BEST TRAINING GROUND FOR YOUR SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT!
Some religions see this earth as hell, some as suffering, some as bondage, some as some kinda of gladiator tribal fight to the death (winner takes all and enslaves all other tribes—Abrahamic Religions).
None of those views of Earth divine-primary purpose is THE TRUTH THAT DEPENDS ON THE TRUTH. They are all either 1) LIES THAT DEPEND ON THE TRUTH OR 2) LIES THAT DEPEND ON THE LIES!
This place is not some soul-less jungle without a designer or creator. Eternal I (He and She) designed this Earth as a nursery of sorts. A place where souls, divine souls already Gods and Goddesses can grow up and test their knowledge and power in a limited sphere. You are not stupid or evil, but simply children growing up and going through countless CHILD-LEARNING PHASES–learning patterns of life, knowledge, wisdom and trust.
This Earth is not a place of ignorance because Eternal I (He and She) are here helping you and teaching you in one way or another. Eternal I (He and She) talks to all, even if, all insist they hear nothing; even if all or many insist they have no guidance. You do not have to say 666 prayers or thank yous, or bow 5 or 400 times or go to the store and buy half of it to feed your hungry God and Goddesses meals.
This Earth is not a place of bondage because Eternal I (He and She) are here helping you and teaching you in one way or another. Eternal I (He and She) talks to all, even if, all insist they hear nothing; even if all or many insist they have no guidance. You do not have to contort your body like a human pretzel over and over simply to hear or receive teaching from Eternal I (He and She).
This Earth is not a place of void, alone, a world spinning own its own, growing on its own, without a designer or owner. The world is not some void without a supreme being looking after you for your best interest. Your needs, desires, wants, and goals are part of the Child-Learning Phase where you naturally learn the patterns of life. Patterns that will benefit you in Abyssarianism Heaven, no matter how high up you go. You are learning patterns, real THE TRUTH THAT DEPENDS ON THE TRUTH knowledge that will help you in whatever lifetimes you live in!
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Everyday you receive an Abyss Download of power, information, more self-awareness, other-awareness, skills and talent to make a successful life solving problems.
FROM THE ABYSSARIANISM FIVE MOTTO’S PERSPECTIVE:
1. THE TRUTH DEPENDS ON THE TRUTH!
THE LIE DEPENDS ON THE TRUTH!
THE LIES DEPEND ON THE LIES!
2. LIFE IS NOT ABOUT SUFFERING—LIFE IS ABOUT GROWING UP!
3. THERE IS NO ABYSSARIANISM WITHOUT RESILIENCE!
4. MERITORIOUS BEHAVIOR REQUIRES RESILIENCE!
5. YOU CAME INTO THIS WORLD TO SOLVE PROBLEMS!
Let me tell you about Grace. She’s fifty-six now, a retired teacher who spent her life helping others. She’s kind, generous, and beloved by everyone who knows her. But Grace has a secret: she’s terrified of God. She was raised in a strict religious home where the Abrahamic God was described as a punisher, a judge, a wrathful figure who kept track of every sin. She was told she was a sinner, that she was born bad, that she needed to earn her salvation. She spent her life trying to be perfect, trying to be good enough, trying to avoid God’s punishment. She was exhausted, anxious, and never felt like she was enough. Even now, after leaving that religion, Grace can’t shake the image of a God who is angry and disappointed.
Grace’s image of God isn’t just a theological belief—it’s a wound. It’s a wound that shaped her relationship with herself, with others, and with the world. She can’t fully love herself because she believes God doesn’t fully love her. She can’t fully trust others because she believes God doesn’t fully trust her. She can’t fully rest because she believes God is always watching, always judging, always waiting for her to fail.
The Abyssarianism Eternal I School is about healing that wound. It’s about recognizing that the God you were taught to fear is not the God who exists. It’s about finding a Divine presence that feels safe, loving, and unconditional. It’s about giving your Abyssarianism Inner Child a God they can trust.
Opening Hook (before the Introduction):
“The God you were taught to fear is not the God you need to meet.”
THE NEGATIVE ASPECT: THE DIVINE WOUNDS
Let’s look at how the previous Gods, particularly the Abrahamic Gods were presented accurately in their negativity. These aren’t just theological beliefs—they’re wounds that shaped your Abyssarianism Inner Child’s sense of self, trust, safety, and worth.
The Punishing God. As a non-Abyssarian, you were told God was love, but the God you heard about was a God who kept score. Every sin was recorded. Every mistake was tallied. Every moment of weakness was added to the cosmic ledger. Your Inner Child learned that they were never safe—not even from the One who was supposed to love them most. This God was not a shepherd; this God was a warden. You learned to hide from God the same way you hid from your parents—quiet, still, afraid of being seen. The punishing God creates adults who punish themselves. You become your own judge, jury, and executioner. You deny yourself joy because somewhere deep inside, you believe you don’t deserve it. You are waiting for the hammer to fall. And the worst part? You don’t even know you’re waiting. The punishing God wound says, “I am bad. I deserve punishment. I can never be good enough.”
The Distant God. As a non-Abyssarian, this God was not angry—this God was simply… absent. You prayed, and no one answered. You cried, and the silence was the only response. You needed help, and the heavens remained empty. Your Inner Child learned that they were alone in the universe. That no one was watching. That no one cared. The distant God creates adults who are hyper-independent. You rely on no one because you learned that reliance leads to disappointment. You carry everything yourself because you learned that no one is coming to help. You are exhausted from being your own savior. The distant God wound says, “I am alone. No one cares about me. I have to do everything myself.”
The Conditional God. As a non-Abyssarian, you were taught God loves you—but only if you are good. Only if you follow the rules. Only if you are perfect. Your Inner Child learned that love must be earned. That they must perform to be accepted. That they are never quite enough for the Divine, just as they are never quite enough for their parents. The conditional God creates adults who are never satisfied with themselves. You achieve and achieve, but you never feel like you’ve done enough. You’re always trying to earn a love that was never meant to be transactional. You are exhausted from the performance. The conditional God wound says, “I have to earn love. I’m not enough. I need to be better.”
The Gender-Biased God. As a non-Abyssarian, you probably received the teaching of a God who is only male—or only female. A God who reflects the power of one gender and the subservience of the other. Your Inner Child learned that one gender is more like God than the other. If you are female, you learned that you are lesser, that the Divine doesn’t look like you. If you are male, you learned that emotions and vulnerability are ungodly. The gender-biased God creates adults who are disconnected from half of their humanity. You repress the masculine or feminine aspects of yourself, always trying to fit into a box that was never meant for you. The gender-biased God wound says, “I am not fully made in God’s image. Something is wrong with me.”
The Exclusive God. As a non-Abyssarian, this God only loves one group. One religion. One race. One nation. Your Inner Child learned that you are either in or out. Saved or damned. Chosen or rejected. The exclusive God creates adults who are afraid of difference. You are either rigidly dogmatic—clinging to your exclusive truth—or you are cynically dismissive, rejecting all forms of spirituality because you can’t stomach the exclusivity. Either way, you are disconnected from the Divine. The exclusive God wound says, “I am not included. I don’t belong. I am on the outside.”
The Demanding God. As a non-Abyssarian, this God is never satisfied. No matter how much you do, it’s never enough. No matter how much you give, you could give more. Your Inner Child learned that they can never rest, never be at peace, never feel that they’ve done enough. The demanding God creates adults who are never satisfied with themselves. You drive yourself to exhaustion. You feel guilty when you rest. You feel like you’re always falling short. The demanding God wound says, “I’m never enough. I can’t rest. I must keep going.”
The Jealous God. As a non-Abyssarian, this God is possessive. This God demands all your attention, all your devotion, all your love. Your Inner Child learned that any love for yourself, any love for others, any love for the world is a betrayal of God. The jealous God creates adults who can’t love themselves. You feel guilty for self-care. You feel guilty for loving others. You feel guilty for enjoying life. The jealous God wound says, “I can’t love myself or others. That would be betraying God.”
The Violent God. As a non-Abyssarian, this God uses violence to achieve ends. This God destroys, punishes, and kills. Your Inner Child learned that violence is holy, that suffering is righteous, that pain is purification. The violent God creates adults who are afraid of God—and who may be violent themselves. The violent God wound says, “Violence is holy. Suffering is good. I must endure pain to be worthy.”
The Silent God. As a non-Abyssarian, this God doesn’t speak. This God doesn’t answer. This God is a void. Your Inner Child learned that their voice doesn’t matter, that their prayers are meaningless, that they are talking to a wall. The silent God creates adults who don’t speak their truth. You don’t ask for help. You don’t express your needs. You’ve learned that it doesn’t matter. The silent God wound says, “My voice doesn’t matter. No one is listening.”
The Absent God. As a non-Abyssarian, this God simply isn’t there. Not silent—absent. There is no God. There never was. Your Inner Child learned that there is no meaning, no purpose, no higher power. The absent God creates adults who are cynical, hopeless, and disconnected. You don’t believe in anything bigger than yourself. You feel like you’re floating in a void. The absent God wound says, “There is no meaning. Nothing matters. I am alone.”
THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I (HE AND SHE) DIVINE SCHOOL COMPOUNDING EFFECT
Just like words, images, sounds, history, money, timeline, relationships, and ResistOppeline’s work, divine wounds compound. One punishing image of God is a pebble. A lifetime of punishing images is a mountain. The more negative images of God you have, the more your relationship with the Divine is damaged.
But divine wounds compound differently than other types of wounds. They affect your relationship with everything. Your image of God shapes your image of yourself. Your image of God shapes your image of others. Your image of God shapes your image of the world. If you believe God is punishing, you will see punishment everywhere. If you believe God is distant, you will feel alone everywhere. If you believe God is conditional, you will believe love is conditional everywhere.
The compounding effect of divine wounds creates a lens through which you see everything. The lens is so powerful that you don’t even know it’s there. You think you’re seeing the world as it is—but you’re seeing the world through the lens of your divine wounds.
But here’s the good news: you can change the lens. You can heal your image of God. It takes work, but it’s possible. The Eternal I School gives you the tools to do it. Become an Abyssarian and enjoy an easier but disciplined life fully promising to develop you into the power and majestic might as Eternal lI (He and She) themselves. Not that you will ever succeed over Eternal I (He and She)—they will always remain your parents. But you will achieve more and more wisdom, power, and development in higher Abyssarianism Heaven (Above all other Heavens by the way) and eventually reach the Abyss of Nothingness—Your true home! No reincarnation required!
HOW NEGATIVE DIVINE IMAGES SHAPE YOUR PRESENT
The Abyssarianism Eternal I School wants you to understand that your image of God shapes your image of yourself. If you believe God is punishing, you will punish yourself. If you believe God is distant, you will feel alone. If you believe God’s love must be earned, you will constantly try to prove yourself.
The Four Divine Image Distortions
When you have divine wounds, you experience one of four distortions:
- The Fearful Distortion. You see God as angry and punishing. You are afraid of God. You are afraid of yourself. You are afraid of everything. Your life is governed by fear. You can’t rest. You can’t enjoy anything. You’re always waiting for the other shoe to drop. The fearful distortion says, “God is angry. I am unsafe. I need to be perfect to survive.”
- The Orphan Distortion. You see God as distant and absent. You feel alone in the universe. You are hyper-independent. You don’t ask for help. You don’t trust anyone. You carry everything yourself. The orphan distortion says, “God is gone. I am alone. I have to do everything myself.”
- The Performer Distortion. You see God as conditional. You are constantly trying to earn love. You never feel like you’ve done enough. You are exhausted from the performance. The performer distortion says, “God’s love is conditional. I have to earn it. I’m never enough.”
- The Cynical Distortion. You see God as a myth. You don’t believe in anything. You are cynical, hopeless, and disconnected. You feel like you’re floating in a void. The cynical distortion says, “God doesn’t exist. Nothing matters. I am alone in the void.”
THE POSITIVE ASPECT: THE DIVINE HEALING
Now, what about positive divine images? They exist. A God who is loving, present, and unconditional. A God who is both He and She, both strength and nurture. A God who is not exclusive but inclusive, not punishing but forgiving. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to meet this God. This is Eternal I (He and She)!
Positive Divine Images That Heal
The Abyssarianism Loving God. ternal I (He and She) is not a warden; this God is a parent. A parent—a parent who always shows up; although not in the way the Abyssarian, Hero or Heroine, may desire. A God who does not keep score but instead keeps a door open. A God who does not punish but guides. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to know that this God exists—not because you’ve seen them, but because you’ve seen the practical and pragmatic evidence of their love in the world. The sun rising every morning. The kindness of strangers. The unexpected moment of grace. The loving God creates adults who can receive love. You begin to believe that you are loved, not because you earned it, but because you exist. You start to treat yourself with the same compassion you always wanted. The loving God image says, “I am loved. I am safe. I don’t have to earn it.”
The Present God. ternal I (He and She) is not distant; this God is near. In the breath you take. In the heartbeat you feel. In the voice of a friend who calls at exactly the right moment. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to know that they were never alone. That Eternal I (He and She) are there in the silence, waiting for you to notice. Eternal I (He and She) creates adults who can be present. You stop living in the past and start experiencing the now. You notice the small miracles instead of just the pain. You feel accompanied instead of abandoned. The present Eternal I (He and She) image says, “I am not alone. God is with me. I can be present.”
The Unconditional God. Eternal I (He and She) loves you not because you are good—but because you are theirs. Period. Full stop. No conditions. No performance. No earning. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to know that they are loved exactly as they are. Not after they lose weight. Not after they get their life together. Not after they become the person their parents wanted them to be. Now. As they are. The unconditional Eternal I (He and She) creates adults who can stop performing. You begin to rest. You begin to receive. You begin to trust that you are enough. The unconditional Eternal I (He and She) image says, “I am loved unconditionally. I am enough. I don’t have to earn love.”
The God Who Is Both He and She. Eternal I (He and She) is not confined to one gender. They are the father who protects and the mother who nurtures. They are the strength that holds and the softness that soothes. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to know that Eternal I (He and She) looks like both of their parents—and neither (or Nothingness!). That the Divine is not limited by human categories. The Eternal I (He and She) who is both He and She creates adults who are whole. You stop repressing parts of yourself. You integrate the masculine and feminine within you. You become balanced, complete, at home. The both/and God image says, “I am fully made in God’s image. All of me is welcome.”
The Inclusive God. Eternal I (He and She) loves everyone. Not just one religion. Not just one race. Not just one nation. Eternal I (He and She) is bigger than any human understanding of God. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to know that they are not excluded. That they belong to something larger than themselves. The inclusive God creates adults who can connect across difference. You stop fearing people who are different from you. You start seeing the Divine in everyone. You become more loving, more generous, more open. The inclusive God image says, “I belong. Everyone belongs. Love is bigger than division.”
The God of Rest. Eternal I (He and She) invites you to rest. This God doesn’t demand constant performance. Eternal I (He and She) says, “Be still and know that I am with you.” Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to know that they can rest. Eternal I (He and She) makes worshiping them simple. You stop driving yourself. You stop feeling guilty for taking breaks. You learn to be still. Eternal I (He and She) of rest image says, “I can rest. I don’t have to perform. I am safe in stillness.”
The God of Love. Eternal I (He and She) is love. Not angry. Not distant. Not conditional. Not exclusive. Just love. Pure, unconditional, infinite love. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child needs to know that this is the truth about Eternal I (He and She). The Eternal I (He and She) creates adults who can love. You love yourself because you know you are loved. You love others because you know they are loved. You love the world because you know it is held in love. Eternal I (He and She) love image says, “I am love. I am loved. I can love.”
THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I SCHOOL GIFT
The gift of the Abyssarianism Eternal I School is that you can become a channel of Divine love for others. You can show people what it looks like to be loved unconditionally. There are Evolvers, but essentially no one is to teach Abyssarianism—because Eternal I (He and She) is here doing that job! And Eternal I (He and She) knows how to do it better than anyone else!
Some people become artists, writers, or nonlyrical musicians, expressing the Divine through their work. Some people become simply present—a loving presence in the lives of others. Every Abyssarian works on making the world a better place by using the Nine Abyssarianism schools skills and pattern recognition all are capable of utilizing! The gift is that you can transform your divine wounds into divine healing. But that gift doesn’t arrive automatically. You have to claim it.
The Positive Divine Practice
When you actively cultivate a positive image of Eternal I (He and She) you’re not just “thinking happy thoughts.” You’re building a relationship with the Divine. You’re creating a sense of trust, safety, love, and connection. The positive divine practice becomes a resource you can draw on in moments of spiritual crisis.
THE HOOK INTEGRATION: WHAT GRABS YOU, WHAT HOLDS YOU, WHAT CHANGES YOU
Every chapter in this book now opens with a hook that speaks directly to your pain point. Every exercise closes with a hook that reminds you why you’re doing the work. And every “Messy Middle” checkpoint includes a hook that keeps you from quitting when it gets hard.
Below is the integrated hook subterranean geography for the Eternal I School—pulled directly from the customer research that shaped this book.
Opening Hook (before the Introduction):
“The God you were taught to fear is not the God you need to meet.”
Hook Checkpoint #1: After “The Negative Aspect”
You’ve just read about the divine wounds—the punishing God, the distant God, the conditional God. Now ask yourself:
“When you think of God, do you feel fear—or do you feel love?”
If you paused, you’re in the right place. The hooks that follow are designed to catch you when your mind tries to slip back into old images.
Hook Checkpoint #2: After “The Positive Aspect”
You’ve seen the gift—the loving God, the present God, the unconditional God. But here’s the hook that keeps you from dismissing it:
“You don’t need to earn God’s love. You need to receive it.”
If that sentence made you uncomfortable, good. Discomfort is the edge of change.
Hook Checkpoint #3: Before “The Exercises”
You’re about to do the work. Before you start, read this hook out loud:
“If you are angry at God, good. God can handle your anger. Your Inner Child needs to see you fight for them.”
Say it again. Your Inner Child needs to hear it.
Hook Checkpoint #4: During “Exercise 2: The Divine Image Reframing”
When you’re asking where you learned your negative image of God, this hook will catch you:
“What you believe about God is what you believe about yourself. Change the image; change the feeling.”
Don’t stay stuck in the old image. The hook is permission to let go.
Hook Checkpoint #5: During “Exercise 3: The Divine Connection Practice”
When you’re sitting in silence and it feels like nothing is happening, remember:
“Five minutes of presence is worth more than an hour of performance.”
This hook stops you from quitting because it feels unproductive.
Hook Checkpoint #6: After “The Messy Middle”
You’ve read about where readers get stuck. Now the hook that pulls you out:
“The God you are angry at is not the God who exists. The God who exists is waiting for you to stop running.”
Not because it’s easy. Because it’s true.
Hook Checkpoint #7: At the End of “The Science Section”
After reading the research about spirituality and mental health, this hook lands:
“Healing your image of God is healing your image of yourself.”
It prevents the expectation of a quick fix.
Closing Hook (before the Synopsis):
“The child you ignore becomes the shadow you fear. The child you meet becomes the light and gift you carry.”
THE MESSY MIDDLE: WHERE READERS ACTUALLY GET STUCK
Now let’s get real. Because the “negative” and “positive” sections are clean. They’re neat. Life isn’t neat. Oh, if life were clean, neat and not messy and requiring problem solving.
Here’s where readers get stuck with the Eternal I School:
Stuck Point #1: “I was raised with a punishing God and I can’t unsee that face.”
You want to believe in a loving God, but you can’t. The punishing image is burned into your mind. Every time you try to imagine a loving God, the punishing image comes back. You feel like you’re fighting a losing battle.
Stuck Point #2: “I want to believe, but I can’t.”
You intellectually want to believe in something bigger. But your heart won’t let you. You’ve been hurt too many times. You’ve been disappointed too many times. You can’t force yourself to believe.
Stuck Point #3: “I’m angry at God and I don’t know what to do with that.”
You’ve been hurt. You’ve suffered. You’ve watched people you love suffer. You feel like God let you down, or wasn’t there, or didn’t care. You’re angry. But you were taught that anger at God is a sin. So you suppress it. The anger turns into resentment, cynicism, or depression.
Stuck Point #4: “I can’t feel God no matter how hard I try.”
You’ve done the practices. You’ve meditated. You’ve prayed. You’ve gone to church (or avoided it). And you feel nothing. You feel like you’re doing it wrong. You wonder if God is real. You wonder if you’re broken. The silence feels like judgment.
Stuck Point #5: “I don’t want to be told what to believe.”
You’ve been burned by religion. You were told what to think, what to feel, what to believe. You’re not going to let anyone do that to you again—including this book. The moment something sounds like dogma, you close down. You want spirituality without rules, connection without control.
Stuck Point #6: “I’m afraid that if I find God, I’ll lose myself.”
You’ve seen people who lost themselves in religion. You’ve seen people who gave up their autonomy, their critical thinking, their identity. You’re afraid that if you connect with God, you’ll lose yourself. You’d rather stay disconnected than lose your sense of self.
Stuck Point #7: “I don’t believe in God at all.”
You’re an atheist. Or an agnostic. You don’t believe in any higher power. This chapter feels irrelevant to you. You’re tempted to skip it. You feel like it’s not for you.
Stuck Point #8: “I’ve tried religion and it didn’t work.”
You’ve been burned by organized religion. You’ve been hurt by religious people. You’ve been judged, excluded, or shamed. You’ve given up on the whole thing. You feel like religion is toxic.
Stuck Point #9: “I don’t know how to talk to God.”
You’ve never prayed. You don’t know the words. You don’t know how to start. You feel awkward and self-conscious. You feel like you’re doing it wrong.
Stuck Point #10: “I’m afraid that if I question God, I’ll be punished.”
You were taught that doubt is a sin. That questioning God leads to punishment. You’re afraid to ask questions. You’re afraid to be honest. You’re afraid that God will be angry with you.
COMMON MISTAKES WITH THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I SCHOOL
Here’s what most people do wrong—and what you need to avoid:
Mistake #1: Forcing belief. You try to believe something you don’t. This creates more shame. You feel like a hypocrite. You feel like you’re pretending. Belief can’t be forced. It has to be discovered.
Mistake #2: Rejecting God completely. You throw out the whole concept. You become cynical. This protects you from the pain of your divine wounds—but it also closes off the possibility of healing. You’ve sealed the door shut and thrown away the key.
Mistake #3: Confusing God with the people who hurt you. You think God is like your abusive parent, your judgmental pastor, your harsh religious teacher. You project their faces onto the Divine. You can’t separate the messenger from the message. So you reject God to reject the people who failed you.
Mistake #4: Staying in a punishing image of God. You know the image is wrong, but you stay with it because it’s familiar. The familiar feels safe, even when it’s painful. You’re afraid to let go of the God you know.
Mistake #5: Trying to heal divine wounds without addressing the wounds. You try to skip the pain. You try to jump straight to a loving God without grieving the punishing one. This doesn’t work. You have to process the wound to heal it.
Mistake #6: Doing the work alone. You try to heal your image of God in isolation. You don’t talk to anyone about it. You don’t seek spiritual support. This makes the work harder and slower. Healing is relational—you need others to help you see the Divine differently. Remember, the Second Community, Abyssarian Heroes and Heroines—go there and get Eternal I (He and She) expert help!
Mistake #7: Giving up when it feels hard. Divine work is emotional. It brings up old pain, old anger, old doubt. You want to quit. But the hard part is the healing part. Don’t stop when it gets difficult.
Mistake #8: Comparing your spiritual journey to others. You see someone else who seems to have a perfect relationship with God and think you’re failing. You don’t know their story. You don’t know what they’ve been through. Comparison is the thief of peace.
Mistake #9: Thinking you have to have all the answers. You think you need to figure out God. You need to have a perfect theology. You need to have all the answers. But you don’t. Mystery is part of the Divine. You can have questions and still have a relationship with God.
Mistake #10: Forgetting that God can handle your anger. You think you need to be polite with God. You think you need to be reverent. But God can handle your anger. God can handle your doubt. God can handle your questions. You don’t have to pretend.
THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I SCHOOL EXERCISES: STEP-BY-STEP
Exercise 1: The Divine Image Inventory (30 minutes)
Take out your notebook. Write the words: “God is…” and complete the sentence 20 times. Don’t edit. Don’t judge. Let it all out. “God is angry.” “God is silent.” “God is a man.” “God is a myth.” “God is love.” “God is watching.” “God is punishing.” Just write. This is your starting point. You can’t change your image of God until you know what it is.
What if you don’t believe in God? That’s okay. Write “God doesn’t exist.” Write “God is nothing.” Write what you actually believe. The exercise is about being honest.
Exercise 2: The Divine Image Reframing (45 minutes)
Look at your list. For every negative image, ask: “Where did I learn this?” Write down the person, experience, or teaching that created that image. Then reframe it. “God is angry” becomes “God is not angry—I was taught that by my father.” “God is silent” becomes “God is not silent—I learned that because no one listened to me.” This separates the Divine from the humans who failed you.
What if you can’t reframe? That’s okay. Just sit with the question. The practice is the practice.
Exercise 3: The Divine Connection Practice (5 minutes daily)
Set a timer for five minutes. Sit in a comfortable position. Breathe deeply. Do not pray for anything. Do not ask for anything. Do not perform anything. Just be present. Let your Inner Child know they are safe. Let yourself feel whatever you feel—anger, sadness, indifference, doubt. This is not about feeling God; it’s about showing up for yourself. The showing up is the practice.
What if you feel nothing? That’s okay. Just sitting is the practice. The feeling will come later. Or not. But the sitting is still valuable.
Exercise 4: The Divine Affirmation (daily)
Every morning, say this out loud: “I am loved unconditionally. Not because I am good. Not because I earned it. Just because I exist.” Say it three times. Feel the resistance. Say it again. Your Inner Child needs to hear this more than your brain wants to believe it.
What if you don’t believe it? That’s okay. Say it anyway. The belief follows the action. Acting as if it’s true makes it true.
Exercise 5: The Create Your Own Divine Image (ongoing)
Draw, paint, or collage a God that feels safe to you. If you can’t draw, use images from magazines or the internet. Find a picture that makes you feel held, seen, and loved. Put it somewhere you will see it every day. Let your Inner Child see this image. Let them know that this is the God who loves them.
What if you can’t find an image? That’s okay. Just sit with the intention. The image will come. Or you can write a description. The point is to create something that feels safe.
Exercise 6: The Letter to God (30 minutes)
Write a letter to God. Not the God you were taught to fear—the God you wish existed. Tell them about your wounds. Tell them about your anger. Tell them what you need. This is not a prayer; it’s a confrontation. God can handle your honesty. Your Inner Child deserves to speak their truth.
What if you don’t believe in God? That’s okay. Write the letter anyway. You can address it to “the universe” or “the void” or “whatever is out there.” The exercise is about expressing what you feel.
Exercise 7: The Letter Back (30 minutes)
Now write a letter from God to you. Use the voice of the God you wish existed. What would they say to you? “I see you. I know you’ve been hurt. I was there with you. I’m not angry. I’m not distant. I’ve been waiting for you to speak. I love you. You are mine. You are enough.” Let your Inner Child receive this letter.
What if you can’t write a letter from God? That’s okay. Just imagine what you would want God to say. Write that. The exercise is about giving yourself what you need.
Exercise 8: The Divine Gratitude (daily)
Every day, find three things to be grateful for. This is a spiritual practice. It connects you to the Divine. Gratitude is a form of prayer. Grateful people are closer to the Divine.
What if you can’t find anything? Start small. “I’m grateful for my breath.” “I’m grateful for the sky.” “I’m grateful I’m still here.” Gratitude is a practice.
Exercise 9: The Spiritual Community (ongoing)
Find a spiritual community that feels safe. It doesn’t have to be a church. It could be a meditation group. A spiritual book club. An online forum. A group of friends who share your spiritual questions. Community is a container for spiritual healing. If you only ask one person to help you, as Eternal I (He and She)! They are your Second Community!
What if you can’t find a community? That’s okay. Start small. Find one person who shares your spiritual questions. Community starts with one. If you only ask one person to help you, as Eternal I (He and She)! They are your Second Community!
Exercise 10: The Divine Release Ritual (30 minutes)
Create a ritual to release your divine wounds. Light a candle. Write down the punishing image of God. Burn the paper. Say out loud: “I release the God of punishment. I choose the God of love.” This is a symbolic act, but symbols have power.
What if you don’t want to do a ritual? That’s okay. Just say the words out loud. The words are powerful enough.
THE SCIENCE BEHIND THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I SCHOOL
This isn’t just religous-spiritual talk. The science is real.
Research on spirituality and mental health shows a clear correlation: people who report a positive image of God have lower rates of anxiety, depression, and suicide ideation. A 2012 study from Duke University found that religious commitment and positive spiritual experiences were associated with better mental health outcomes.
Research on the brain and spirituality shows that spiritual practices activate the parasympathetic nervous system, reducing stress and promoting healing. A 2018 study from Harvard Medical School found that participants who engaged in daily spiritual practice showed measurable improvements in emotional regulation.
Research on forgiveness and spirituality shows that people who have a positive image of God are more likely to forgive themselves and others. A 2020 study from the University of California found that participants who reported a loving image of God were more likely to engage in self-compassion.
Research on neuroplasticity confirms that the brain can change. Your image of God can change. It takes time and practice, but it’s possible. Your brain is not fixed. Your relationship with the Divine can be healed.
A 2021 study from the National Institutes of Health found that participants who engaged in spiritual practices—including meditation, prayer, and gratitude—showed measurable changes in brain activity associated with well-being. Spirituality changes the brain.
The science is clear: spirituality, when positive, is a protective factor for mental health. Your relationship with the Divine matters. And you can heal it.
THE ABYSSARIANISM ETERNAL I SCHOOL SYNOPSIS
The Abyssarianism Eternal I School teaches that your nonAbyssarianism Inner Child’s relationship with the Divine was shaped by negative images of God—punishing, distant, conditional, exclusive, demanding, jealous, violent, silent, or absent. These images created shame, fear, and loneliness. Your image of God shaped your image of yourself, others, and the world. But you can reframe them. But by converting to Abyssarianism Eternal I (He and She) and connecting with their loving Divine presence, you can heal your nonAbyssarianism Inner Child. The Abyssarianism Eternal I School is a more just, more trusting, more inclusive, more pragmatic and practical engaging religion. Abyssarianism shows you a helping God that makes you feel trust and safe with. Your Abyssarianism Inner Child deserves to know that they are loved, unconditionally. And that love can heal everything.
